I think we label what we are experiencing. This is good or that is bad. Whatever it is we define it, and then based off of that we treat the emotion. If it feels good, we question it. “Am I allowed to feel good?” or “Is this really a good thing?” But when we are sad, we push it to the side. We don’t allow ourselves to experience the emotion because it’s bad and we shouldn’t be feeling it. See that’s where we end up hurting ourselves because the longer we sit on an emotion, the more toxic it becomes to our being. When we feel emotions and let ourselves go there, really feel it, it then allows for us to let it go. Pushing it to the side, only allows for us to hold onto it longer. We consciously might not be aware of it, but we are riding ourselves of potential joy because we can’t let go.
I am asking you to not be afraid of what you are feeling. Give yourself permission to experience all that feels “good” and “bad” (emphasis on “BAD”). We don’t always feel great. That’s completely normal. It’s okay to not to be 100%, but you have to allow yourselves to experience the “bad” emotions in order to move past it.
We have to look beyond the sensation of the emotion, and realize it’s just energy in our bodies, nothing more than that. Once I grasped that concept, I began to allow for myself to really experience every emotion.
This past week has been an amazing rollercoaster of emotions. Last week I struggled with anxiety of the unknown. I’d never really desired to be a part of a “typical” higher educational institute until I came across Watson University (which is not typical and all sorts of amazing). That’s where I felt I needed to be for my own growth. So I was waiting to find out whether I got in and I felt all sorts of crazy! Sometimes I was nervous, other times I was excited, or I just felt numb. When I was going through these times, I let myself experience it. I realized this is just part of the journey and why not experience all of it? It’s from the pain that we know what joy is. The night before I received my acceptance (oh yah, I rocked that application and am so excited!) I felt really content. I told my mom a quote from ‘A Course in Miracles,’ “Those who are certain of the outcome can wait and wait without anxiety.” My mom said, “well we don’t know you are getting in?!”. My response was, “I don’t know, but I do know that goods things will happen no matter what.”
Don’t let your emotions dictate your life. Because if you let yourself experience it all, feel everything, and trust the process, good things will happen!